by isaac black

I mentioned in the last post my having lots of free time as a reason to not have an excuse for doing things for others. That didn’t come out quite right. More accurately, now that I’m focusing on myself and my relationships with people, I feel a greater sense of inadequacy if I fail in those regards without the excuse of being busy due to work. Several things have brought it up–simple procrastination on household chores, failing to maintain a friendship, reluctance to visit my parents. Even though it’s uncomfortable right now, it’s ultimately a good thing, as being “busy” was not the source of my failure to prioritize relationships. It has more to do with my discomfort with relying on people. I intend to work on that.